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so, after being sick for two weeks... *sigh* ... i've been in quite a jumble. trying to get caught up with missing 2 weeks worth of school, and being in design, missing ONE class is bad enough, much less 2 classes, and so the race to get caught up is quite the task. but by God's grace, i'm pretty much getting caught up quickly (Thankfully). physically, i think i'm pretty much at optimum level... maybe not 100% but pretty close. i've come to conclude after some conversations with a friend that as a university student, you're never really at 100%, you just try to be at the optimum level. :P so very true...

anyhowz, aside from the physical aspect of life... (still having a bit of paranoia about getting sick again though. :P ), i guess you can say that this week, i'm getting back into the full swing of things. that in itself is a bit terrifying, cuz i don't wanna exhaust myself to the point of getting sick all over again, but i guess i can't hide from the world forever in my semi-quarantined house. :P anyhow, back to getting into the full swing of things again, i just realized what that truly meant. it's like for the past two weeks, sick as i've been, i've been in a l'il bubble, somewhat disconnected from the world. going back to church and work and what not i feel as though i've been gone an awfully long time and have missed out on a ton of things. heading into this past weekend i was feeling a bit disconnected, a l'il disoriented, and well, uncomfortable in my own skin? it's kinda like i forgot who i was before i got sick. it's a really awkward kinda feeling.

it felt really nice though getting back to those relationships and friendships that i oh so sorely missed while i was wrapped up in bed watching tv shows and sleeping all day. it took a bit of time to feel comfortable talking to people again, but things are good i guess, and i feel quite blessed to have such people in my life.

anyhowz, besides getting back to the good things that i missed while i was out sick, i also realized that i also had to get back to the not-so-good things in life... school, the familiar hermit-mode of design students, and well other "issues" that shall remain anonymous. but well, life can't always be a bed of roses (it hardly ever is if you really think about it), and with the good comes the bad.

alrite, it's 1:30am, and i got work tmw. think it's time to hit the sack. just wanted to rant a bit and i guess update a bit on where i've been and what i've been up to. :)

some final thoughts ... don't really know if this feeling of disconnected-ness will go away for a while (hint: although i've gotten back to talking to people, still somewhat feel outta the loop for some reason)... but yah, i've realized after talking to some fellow design kids, that october and november are the months that most of us see little to no daylight... it's the months where i hole myself up in my room and plant myself in front of the computer for hours on end, moving lines here and there, pictures here and there, fixing serifs on fonts, and the list goes on. hopefully, that won't be the case, and i'll still have some contact with the outside world... even if it's only through MSN. :P